"I have tried simply to write the best I can. Sometimes I have good luck and write better than I can." -Ernest Hemingway

“The only living works are those which have drained much of the author's own life into them.” –Samuel Butler

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Rejection


            Sitting by her mail-box, Allison impatiently waited for the blue mail truck to come into view.  Picking at her nails because she had nothing else to do, she tried to calm her excitement.  She waited for her potential acceptance letter to her dream college, Stanford.
            Suddenly, from the corner of her eye, Allison saw a blue streak slowly making its way to her house.  She jumped to her feet and stared expectantly at the mail truck.
            After a few minutes, the mail man pulled up to Allison’s house, leisurely got out of the truck and sluggishly handed Allison her mail.  Snatching it from him, Allison quickly rifled through all the envelopes to fine the one she was looking for.  Grabbing hold of the letter from Stanford, she forgot about all the other mail, which fell carelessly to the ground.
            Ripping the letter open, Allison quickly skimmed the content.  Numbly staring at nothing, she let the letter fall to the ground.
            Feelings of inadequacy and sorrow filled Allison as she attempted to hold back her tears, but they overwhelmed her eyelids and gushed from her eyes.  Her knees buckled and she toppled to the ground.
            What had seemed like such a bright, sunny day had abruptly turned cold and gray. Allison vaguely heard thunder growl in the distance. Too dazed to feel the pelting rain begin, she just sat by her mail-box getting soaked.
            Crushed, Allison stayed put until she realized the rain had stopped and the sky was splashed with color from the setting sun.  Gathering what strength she could, she stood up to walk into her empty house and to start the long journey of moving past the pain.

Friday, June 24, 2011

Running Out of Time (Part Three)


            An hour later, Carmen stepped out of the car after arriving at the Wellington mansion.  Glancing down at herself, she was embarrassed by her rumpled and grungy clothing.
            Walking towards the house, Carmen noticed the multitude of cameras surveying the area and the many guards lurking in the shadows, who were ready to pounce at the first hint of a threat.
            Before Carmen could stop the memory flooding her mind, she was suddenly eleven years old again…
            “Tell me again.  What do you look for when approaching a building?” Her father asked.
            “Umm… You look for the cameras, if there are some.  Then, you find if there are guards and if they are armed. Umm… Then, you… Umm…” Young Carmen struggled to remember the next step.
            “The next thing you look for is what kind of alarms the house has.”
            “Oh, yeah! I can’t believe I forgot that.”
            Carmen shook the memory from her head and once again was ashamed of her father’s career. As a young naïve child, she had admired her father and his vast knowledge, before she understood he was only a lowly criminal.
            Brushing off her anger towards her father, Carmen instinctively made mental notes of the protection around the house.  Slowly, Carmen walked up the steps to the front door and knocked.
            The door flew open to reveal the austere butler. “What do you want?” He asked in a crisp monotone voice.
            “I was wondering if any of the Wellingtons were in. I am a friend of the family.” Carmen’s voice held more confidence than she felt.
            “Who, may I ask, are you?” The butler stiffly inquired.
            “I am Carmen James. No, Ford! Carmen Ford.” Carmen decided to giver her father’s surname rather than her mother’s maiden name.  She had changed her name when she had wanted to distance herself from her father.
            The butler allowed Carmen to enter the house but commanded, “Stay here and don’t touch anything.” Carmen bitterly chuckled to herself, remembering her purpose for being here.
            Gazing around the room, Carmen tried to guess just were the vase would be.  Thinking back to what the voice had told her during the long car ride, she cautiously took a few steps to get a better look into one of the other rooms.
            “Carmen, dear!” Mrs. Wellington glided into the room with perfect poise. “Well, this is a surprise.  How’s your dear father?” Dear? How could anyone call my father ‘dear?’
            “He passed away a few weeks ago.” Carmen’s voice held no remorse.
            “Oh, I’m so sorry to hear that.  He was such a kind man and very generous, too.” Mrs. Wellington mussed.
            “Why do you call him generous?” Carmen was shocked at Mrs. Wellington’s words.
            “Oh, for Mr. Wellington and I’s twenty-fifth wedding anniversary, which we just celebrated, he gave us the Qianlong Vase, a pretty expensive piece. Did you know it was auctioned off for approximately sixty-six million dollars just last year?” Then how did my father manage to get it, I wonder… He never bought anything.
            Recognizing this was the vase she needed, Carmen asked, “Would you be so kind as to show it to me?”
            “I would love to. It’s this way.” Mrs. Wellington led Carmen to it. Carmen stared at the vase, wondering how she would get it out of the house unnoticed.
            Recalling her time constraint, Carmen looked down only to realize she had just twenty-five minutes left.  Panic rose within her.  She needed this vase but didn’t have a plan to get it out of this well-protected fortress. Luckily, Carmen observed, there didn’t appear to be any sensors around it to sound the alarm if it was moved.
            “Isn’t it such a beautiful piece?” Mrs. Wellington’s voice broke through Carmen’s thoughts.
            “Huh? Oh, yeah, it is.” Carmen distractedly answered.

To Be Continued…

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Empty Worries (Part Two)


Jake quickly scooped her up in his arms.  She clung to him while being grateful for his presence and silence.  They just sat together as Jessica cried in Jake’s arms.
            Finally, when Jessica had spent all her tears, she leaned toward Jake’s ear to whisper, “I’m pregnant.”
            Jessica felt Jake tense, silently regretted her words.  Because of her exhaustion, she didn’t have the strength to keep quiet any longer.
            Jake slowly took in Jessica’s news, finally understanding her strange behavior.  Numb from the shock, Jake sat still until he felt Jessica shift in his arms.
            Jessica looked at him with her clear glimmering eyes and said, “I know you don’t want kids and I’m sorry.” Another sob shook through her.
            Jessica’s words made Jake realize how callous he had been by making her believe he absolutely didn’t want kids.  “Oh, Honey.  Are you so upset about this because of our conversation a few nights ago?  Well, I didn’t want kids then.  Now, once the shock wears off, I’m excited.  I’m going to be a father and I didn’t know, until now, how appealing that idea was.”
            Jessica looked at Jake as is he’d gone insane. “You want kids now? But… I thought…”
            “I know what I had said, but I don’t mean it now.  When you asked me before, I was terrified.  I had no idea how I could be a good dad or how to raise kids.” Jake’s confession surprised Jessica.  She had never would’ve guessed that was the reason he didn’t want kids.
            Then, his earlier news hit her again, Jake didn’t have a job.  It didn’t matter if they wanted kids now or not, they couldn’t afford them. “Jake, what about your job?  We couldn’t afford kids with your old job, now what are we going to do?” Jessica looked like she was going to cry again, but she held the tears back.
            “Oh, about that… When I went out not long ago, I talked to Luke about finding me a job.  And, he did.  The job actually pays better than my old one and it is something I will really enjoy.”  A smile crept along Jake’s face, showing his joy for the coming baby and his new job.
            Jessica was shocked once again.  All of her worries had just evaporated and she began to wonder why she had even fretted at all.  Jessica relaxed in Jake’s arms while they both let their news sink in.  Their day looked like it would have a happy ending, after all.
            One year later, Jessica thought back to that day and was amazed at how she’d overacted to some simply careless words.  Overjoyed everything had worked out, she glanced down at her beautiful baby girl and felt a surge of love overpower her.  Silently, Jake wrapped his arms around her.  They quietly watched their daughter peacefully sleep, while they contemplated that far off day.  Ever since then, their lives had been irrevocably changed for the better.

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Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Running Out of Time (Part Two)


            Minutes ticked by while Carmen just sat contemplating what she should do. I can’t believe this whole thing is happening because of my thieving father! Can I never get out from under his shadow?  Now, he is putting innocent lives in danger if I don’t do the bidding of some psycho and he isn’t even alive anymore!
            Grumbling to herself, Carmen climbed to her feet to begin the task set before her. Looking around, she wondered how she would make it to the Wellington Estate from wherever she was now.
            Glancing at the count-down on her wrist, Carmen jolted, realizing she had already lost twenty minutes of her precious little time. She hurried out what she believed to be the door of the building, but she couldn’t be sure with the disrepair of the empty warehouse.
            As Carmen passed out of the building, her phone chirped to life. Reluctant to answer, she considered tossing it across the street and leaving it.  Knowing she had to answer, she took a deep soothing breath. “What do you want now?”
            “Oh, don’t sound so upset. I am giving you a little adventure. You should be excited.”
            “Being forced to do your bidding, whoever you are, is not exciting.” Carmen’s anger over the whole situation resurfaced. “What are you calling me for this time?  You want me to go get your coffee too?” Carmen spit out.
            “Oh, no, that won’t be necessary.  I am calling to tell you that I am generously providing you with a car and driver.”  The voice seemed pleased with his ‘generosity’ and continued, “Don’t try anything.  The driver is armed and if you disobey my instructions, he won’t hesitate to put a bullet in your pretty little head.”
            “Oh, why thank you,” Carmen’s frustrated sarcasm dripped from her words.
            “You’re welcome. Now get to it, you only have an hour and a half left.”
            Unable to restrain her temper, Carmen ended the call and threw her phone to the ground, smashing it to pieces. Breathing hard, she glanced around to find the car waiting for her. Spotting it, she took a deep breath to calm herself and made her way to the black Mercedes-Benz.
            Carmen slid into the leather upholstered seats of the car and curiously stared at her chauffeur.  Clothed in a black suit and hat, the driver wore a rigid expression and tossed something back to her while grumbling, “Don’t break this one.” Taking a closer inspection at the object, Carmen realized it was another cell phone.
            Moments later, the car lurched to life. Carmen gloomily peered out the window to the blurred landscape they were passing at an alarming speed.

To Be Continued…

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Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Empty Worries (Part One)


Jessica slowly walked to the house, not watching her surroundings, when she bumped into her husband, Jake.  His arms shot out to steady her.  When she looked into his eyes, she saw a spark of urgency.
            “Honey, I have to tell you something.” Jake blurted.
            Jessica didn’t hear him and noticed he was home instead of work.  “Why aren’t you at work right now?” A slight flash of fear glazed over Jessica’s eyes for a brief moment, before she hid it.
            “That is what I need to tell you about.  I… umm…” Again, Jake started to consider how he could tell Jessica his news.
            “Well…” Jessica paused to let him continue and when he didn’t, she said, “Just say it.”
            “I… kinda… let’s just say… I…” Jake stumbled over his words.  He averted his gaze from Jessica, fearing what she was going to think.
            “Come on, honey.  Just say it.” She urged.
            “Okay… I… I lost my job.” Jake looked almost relieved to finally not carry the burden of his news.
            “What?! This can’t be happening!  What about…? What are we…?” Now, Jessica couldn’t look at Jake.  She wrung her hands and shifted her weight between her feet to hide the fact she was shaking from head to toe.
            “Honey, I know this is going to be hard for awhile, but we can still make it through.  I’ll get another job soon, don’t worry.” Jake noticed her agitation, and he had no idea his news would’ve affected her like this.
            “But…  What about-” She quickly shut her mouth before it slipped.
            Jake wasn’t so sure if his news made her so upset or something else. “Are you okay?  Is there something you want to tell me?”
            “No, I’m fine. Perfect!”  Jessica exclaimed with a false passion, which made Jake know something was defiantly wrong.
            “You don’t sound or look perfect.  What is it?” Jake reached out to comfort Jessica.
            The moment he touched her icy arm, she jerked away as if his hand was an inferno, and snapped, “Nothing! It’s nothing!” Jessica frantically looked around to see if anyone besides her husband had heard her outburst.
            “Whoa.  It is something.  You know you can tell me anything.  If it is about my job, Luke said he could pull some strings and get me a job.  Baby, don’t worry.”
            “How can I not worry?! How can any of this work out?”  Jessica’s eyes filled with tears. She futilely tried to force them back but a single tear slipped down her cheek.
            “Well, if you just tell me what’s on your mind, maybe I can help.” Jake wanted to reach out to her again, but he feared she would shy away.  He just wanted to know what bothered her, so he could fix it.
            Jessica got more agitated by the minute.  Jake’s calmness unnerved her, and she said, “No, you can’t help.  You can’t fix this!  Not this time.” For the first time, Jessica noticed the cold.  She quickly retreated to the house and left Jake standing defeated on the sidewalk.  She escaped to the bathroom, just in time to lose her breakfast.
             She slowly sank to the ground with her tears freely flowing.  In the distance, she faintly heard Jake enter the house.  Jessica knew she should tell Jake what she had found out at the doctor, but then she remembered their conversation from a few nights ago…
            “Jake, do you want kids?” The look on his face gave away his answer, but Jessica continued, “I mean… Don’t you want to be a father?”
            “Jessica, I would like kids, it’s just, not now.” Jake finished getting ready for bed and joined Jessica, who looked surprised by his answer.
            “Why?  Why not now, what’s wrong with now?”
            “We don’t have much money for us, let alone kids.  And besides, we are just settling into this house and my job, we don’t need to throw kids into the mix to make life more crazy.”  Jake turned off his lamp on his nightstand, showing he didn’t want to discuss it anymore.
            Jessica immediately got flustered at his blatant dismissal and said, “If we had kids, we would manage.  Sure, we won’t be able to spend our money so freely, but I think it would be worth it.”
            Jake deliberately ignored her, “Go to sleep, I have to go to work early tomorrow.”
            “Fine, but this isn’t the end of this discussion.” Jessica shut off her lamp and jerked the covers over her.
            Jessica and Jake hadn’t talked about it since that night, and now, Jessica regretted not being able to convince him.
            Jessica sat on the bathroom floor a few minutes more.  Realizing she couldn’t stay there any longer, she slowly got up.  She opened the door just in time to see Jake get his jacket to sneak from the house.  He glanced her way with a look of defeat. Turning away, he opened the door and walked out.
            Wanting to go after him, Jessica stopped herself because she didn’t want to reveal her news just yet.
            Jessica tried to snap out of her current mood but couldn’t while she sat idle.  In a crazed state, she quickly cleansed every inch of her house until nothing was left to do.
            When the last of her energy was spent, she went to her spotless room, and she crawled into her bed. An hour later, Jake found her curled into a ball, shivering on top of the covers. Tears were streaming down her face.

To Be Continued…

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Monday, June 20, 2011

Running Out of Time (Part One)


            Carmen’s eyes shot open and she braced her head to stop its constant spinning.  When her vision cleared, she looked around to find she was lying in an abandoned building.
            The room was shrouded in a dark hue and provided little protection from the pattering of the downpour outside. Rain drops rhythmically dripped through the patchy roof, uniting with the puddles below.
            As Carmen sat regaining her balance, she started to wonder why she was in this strange place.  She tried to remember what had happened but the harder she tried, the more apparent the black void in her memory became.
            Suddenly, Carmen’s phone chirped to life, startling her out of her contemplation. Tentatively reaching out her shaking hand, she managed to answer the call, “H-hello”
            “Ah, good. You are awake.” She heard the voice on the other end sneer.
            “Who are you? Where am I?” Carmen frantically asked.
            “It’s no matter. What does matter is the explosives strapped to your wrist, which I will gladly detonate if you don’t follow my instructions.”
            For the first time, Carmen peered down to her right wrist to see an odd contraption with a timer strapped there. Turning her wrist around, to get a better look at the device, she noticed, with a sinking heart, there was no way to easily detach it.
            The digital screen suddenly lit up and the clock started ticking down. Realizing she wasn’t listening to the demanding voice droning on through her phone, she started paying closer attention.
            “As you can see, I have given you an hour and forty-five minutes to retrieve this vase your father stole. You will now find it at the Wellington’s estate, I am sure you are familiar with them… Your first task is to steal this vase before your time runs out.” There was a brief pause before the voice continued. “Oh, and one more thing, if you try anything to double-cross me, I will not only blow you up, but also part of the National Independence Day Parade, today, on Constitution Avenue.  It would be too bad if so many innocent lives were lost.” Carmen jolted as she realized the ruthlessness of the voice.
            When she tried to protest, the call cut off.  In shock, Carmen blankly stared at the ground around her.

To Be Continued…

Carmen James (from: Running Out of Time)


At twenty-five, Carmen has long dark brown hair and pale green eyes. She is the daughter of a legendary thief and conman, who taught her all he knew. Ashamed of her father’s criminal activities, she hasn’t spoken to him in years.  When she heard of her father’s death, she felt no remorse, but she still grieves for her mother, who died when Carmen was sixteen. As a child, she grew up surrounded by the wealth her father had gained, but she hates to remember that time because of her blind love of her father and her naivety.


Strengths: Courageous, Self-Sacrificing, Intelligent, Loyal, Bold
Weaknesses: Quick to blame her father for her problems, unforgiving, short-tempered

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Friday, June 17, 2011

Reunion


            Elizabeth sat impatiently waiting as the minutes slowly ticked by. She peered at her watch once again, wondering why time wouldn’t move faster.
            Finding nothing else to occupy her and give her itching bones something to do, Elizabeth jumped to her feet to begin rhythmically pacing.
            In the midst of her stride, Elizabeth didn’t realize someone approached her from behind. She felt a light tap on her shoulder and begrudgingly turned around.
            Focusing on the face that interrupted her, Elizabeth slowly realized, with overwhelming joy, she started into the eyes of who she had been waiting for. Nathan, her older brother, smiled back at Elizabeth as she flung herself into his open arms.
            “Oh, how I’ve missed you, big brother!  How long are you back for this time?” Elizabeth held her brother at arms length to have a good look at him.
            “Just a week. Then, I have to ship out again.” Elizabeth and her brother turned and moseyed arm-in-arm to the baggage claim.
            “Well, I’ve really missed you this past year.” A twinge of sadness crept into Elizabeth’s voice.
            “I’ve missed you too, sis.” Nathan glanced at his younger sister and regretted not being able to spend as much time together as they used to. “Don’t worry, at the end of this year, I’ll be done with my tour in Afghanistan.” Nathan reassured his sister.
            “Yeah, but that seems like forever away,” Elizabeth sighed.
            “I know, sis.” Nathan felt his weariness set in.
            Forcing herself to stop dwelling on the negative, Elizabeth quickened her pace and happily declared, “Let’s just enjoy your time home. What do you want to do first…”
            Walking together, Nathan and Elizabeth continued to chat, catching up on al they had missed during their separation.

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Monday, June 13, 2011

Rebuilding Broken Walls


            Tears gushed from Annie’s eyes as anguish filtered through her bloodstream.  She stared at the departing form growing smaller with each passing second and felt fresh tears fill her eyes.
            The full moon cast its pure light onto the heartbreaking scene as the stars glittered brilliantly in the midnight sky, mocking Annie with their twinkling pleasure. Annie’s golden hair flew with abandonment around her head, dancing in harmony with the vicious wind.
            Annie glanced one last time at the back of the shadowy figure before he was engulfed in darkness and she reflected on what had transpired only moments ago…
            John lightly tugged Annie along to their favorite spot in the park, overlooking the shimmering water.  It was at their favorite time: when the sun had set to reveal the moon’s splendor. Hand in hand, they strolled along the concreted path, enjoying the cool evening air.
            Despite the blissful beauty of the night, Annie could sense something was consuming John’s thoughts, making him withdrawn and cold.  Annie lightly squeezed John’s hand to drag his attention from his musings.
            When John looked up from his distracted daze, Annie inquired as to what was bothering him, “John, you’re very distant tonight. What’s been on your mind?”
            After a long pause where John just blankly stared at Annie with an unidentifiable emotion flaring behind his eyes, John suddenly blurted, “We need to go our separate ways.”
            “What?!” Shock rose within Annie and rapid thoughts were running through her head. What did I do wrong? ... Was it me? ... What brought this about? ... I thought our relationship was going so well! …What happened?
            “I said, we should break up.” John’s words grew with intensity as if he were gaining more courage to say each one as the drama unfolded.
            A quietly whispered, “why?” was all Annie could manage to choke through her growing numbness.
            “Annie, this has been fun but we need to face reality. We just aren’t meant to be together.” John’s words burned in Annie’s ears. She wanted to protest further but John slowly turned away and callously ended their relationship with, “Goodbye, Annie.” Then, he slowly walked out of her life.
            Tears flooded Annie’s glistening blue eyes once again.  Her knees finally gave out and she crumpled to the ground.
            Minutes passed where Annie couldn’t gather enough strength to end her constant flow of tears and her regret overwhelmed her mind. I never should have let him get so close. I shouldn’t have given him that power to wound me and, looking back, I can’t believe how stupid I have been to not see this inevitable end coming!
            Anger, at allowing herself to be so vulnerable, filled Annie and brought about another round of tears.  Her carefree hair clung to the wet tear-stains on her face until Annie reluctantly decided to dry her face.
            When Annie realized her tears were finally spent and the emotionless numbness was setting in, she started the tedious task of rebuilding the walls of protection around her heart.
            As an empty, hollow shell, Annie gathered what strength she could muster and started her long, lonely trek to seclusion.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

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Stage-Fright


Bubbling nervousness stewed in Amber’s stomach.  Bowing her head, she stared at her shaking hands and futilely tried to still them.
                In the background, Amber heard the shouts and cheers of the crowd.  She tried to block their presence out of her mind but with each passing noise her nausea grew.
                I can’t do this! Why did I ever think I could do this?!
                Amber’s panic attack was interrupted when Caleb, the announcer, walked up. “You have five minutes till you go on.”
                Too late, Amber thought. Now I can’t get out of this insanity.
                Noticing Amber’s distress, Caleb drifted closer and crouched in front of her.  Stealing her attention, he tried to calm her by saying, “Amber, you are going to do great. Stop worrying.”
                “Easy for you to say, you aren’t stage-fright!” Amber’s queasiness raged like acid within her. “I think I’m going to be sick!”
                “Just calm down,” Caleb soothed. “Take a deep breath and all this will be over before you know it.”
                Trying to concentrate on Caleb’s words rather than her panic, Amber took a deep, calming breath that helped douse some of the burning nervousness inside her.  Closing her eyes, she pushed her worries aside and prepared herself to go on stage.
                Caleb lightly squeezed her hand, signaling to Amber her time was up. Without another moment’s hesitation, Amber stood up and started on her walk to the inevitable.
“Let’s get this over with,” She sighed.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

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Outsider


Conversation swirled around Annabelle but she didn’t listen to a word.  Her thoughts were overtaken by her never-ending to-do-list.
                Annabelle sat aimlessly fidgeting in her seat. I don’t have time to sit and listen to this idle chatter. I have an infinite list of things to complete.
                Suddenly, Annabelle felt a small tingle in the base of her head.  Looking up, she realized the whole room peered at her with expectant looks of curiosity.
                “Huh, what?” Annabelle managed to choke through her embarrassment.
                “Oh, Annabelle, we were just inquiring on how your latest project is going.  We are all so curious as to what you have been up to since, well… Since you got displaced from your job.”  Annabelle’s audience waited with pleasant smiles on their faces which didn’t hide the rude nature of their question.
                Disgust rose within Annabelle.  She desired nothing more than to storm out of the room but she wouldn’t give her audience that satisfaction.
“I have just been dabbling in a few things… Oh, and that reminds me, I must be getting back to my work.”  Annabelle quickly gathered her purse and prepared to leave.
On her way out, she heard the insincere, “It’s a tragedy to see you go…”
Fighting the urge to barge back in, Annabelle managed to make her way to her car in order to finally leave this hell she only visited for her mother’s sake.  If not for her mother’s singular devotion to keeping appearances up, Annabelle wouldn’t put herself through the misery of spending even a second at this self-centered high society country club.
Sighting to alleviate some of her overbearing frustration, Annabelle continued her drive home to her impatiently awaiting to-do-list.